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[Yama fic] Destiny of Love (Epilogue)

Title: Destiny of Love (Epilogue)
Pairing: Yama (Ohno x Sho) 
Rating: PG
Summary:  Ohno's POV. After Sho broke up with him, Ohno struggled to be a good son and good husband, but still couldn't forget his love for Sho.

( Chapter 1 - 16 )

Epilogue (Ohno's POV)


I won't forget that day when Sho came back to my life. It has been exactly two years. A miserable two years, for both of us. I'm so glad it's over now.


“Satoshi, if I hadn't come today or ever did, will you continue to wait?” Sho asked me while laying in my arms. Our surrounding was dark from nightfall. Feeling each others scent and warmth has spared the need to turn on any light.


“I will, no matter how long, I will.” I said affirmatively. It was a promise I made to myself. I owe it to myself, to Sho, to our love.


Sho looked up at me and grinned. I felt so much love and respect for the face in front of me. “Happy Birthday, Sho” I whispered to his ears, as I lowered my head and placed my lips on his, feeling the taste and softness.


Sho responded eagerly, placing his hands around my neck and my back. Our bodies pressed against each others not allowing any gap in between. We gave each other everything we had, and took in everything that we were given. We wanted to claim back any bits of each other that we missed the past two years.


“I love you, Satoshi.”


“I love you, Sho.”


Nothing could separate us, ever.


When Sho broke up with me, I thought I’d die. It hurt, like hell, to hear Sho saying that he had chosen someone else over me. When he turned around and headed for the door, I took a last glimpse at him. He probably didn’t notice, but I seemed to see tears at the corner of his eyes.


Don’t go, don’t go. I cried inside of me, hoping his tears represent a bit of love for me still left in him, even a tiny bit. I would have taken him back in a heartbeat if he’d stayed. Even though I resent him for betraying our love, it hurts even more to lose him, lose what we had. But hearing the slam of the door, and everything became dead silence, I finally realized it was all over.


I don't know how I got through the few months before the wedding. I was pulled here, dragged there, did whatever others told me to, really couldn't tell if I was a zombie or a puppet. I just didn't care anymore. I didn't have a choice anyway, or I should say, I didn't have to choose anymore.


Looking at myself in the mirror dressed in tuxedo, I told myself I should focus on what's ahead of me, my new responsibilities as a husband. Husband?! All of a sudden this became such a heavy word to me. Hiroko loves me, I have no doubt about that. I thought I love her too, until I met Sho. But that's not important now. I have to love her back, I have to try, try harder. It wouldn't be fair to her if I don't. It's not her fault, or so I thought.


“You are awfully quiet tonight.” Hiroko complaint while laying in my arms on our wedding night. “Are you happy Satoshi-san?”


I was a little stunned by her asking. Did I look that distressed? I kissed her gently on her forehead, trying to ease her worries as much as I could. “Of course I am happy, my dear.”


“Then show me....” Hiroko turned around and wrapped her arms around my neck, offering her lips to me eagerly and passionately. I closed my eyes and returned the kisses, with my mind full of Sho. I hated myself for it, being mentally unfaithful to my new wife in our closest moments. But that's the only way I could get myself into the mood. Sho, I missed you.


Papa sensed something was not right. I was not surprised that he did from what he said to me the day of the wedding. More than once he said to me “Be happy son. Hiroko is a good wife.” I know she is, and papa meant well. He wanted us to be a happy couple. I tried my best, but it's not enough.


“Satoshi, I don't think it's working. We are both unhappy and miserable.”


I didn't know what to say. She was right. “I'm sorry.” is all I could say to her on the day we signed our divorce papers. Even though our marriage had ended, there were no hard feelings between us. I'm thankful she did not blame me for it.


“I thought I could have you, but it seems you heart is still with him.” Hiroko sighed.


“Him??” I looked at Hiroko in shock. “How do you – ”


“I didn't only know. I went to see him – ”


“Went to see him? When? What – ?” My heart sank upon hearing what Hiroko said. A million questions came to my mind.


“Slow down, will you?” She sighed again. “You are so concerned about him, even till now. How could I not concede?!”


She saw the eager look on my face. I was waiting for her explanations.


“The day you said you went to your high school reunion last year. I knew you're going to see him. So I went before you arrived. I found the address from the rent payment you made every month.”


Oh, I was so careless!


“He was a charming guy. No wonder you fall for him. I asked him to leave you. He didn't give me an answer. But his devastated look told me my request was like taking his life away from him. I resent him, and you too! You chose a guy over me, after all these years we're together. Do you understand how I felt?”


I did, really. That's why I felt so guilty every time I faced her. But she has no right to make such a request of Sho. It should be my decision, nobody's but mine!


Sho, oh Sho, I can't imagine what he must be going through when Hiroko showed up. But wait, if he had already decided to break up with me, why would he be despaired?




Damn it! Stupid stupid stupid! I smacked my head over and over again until I felt dizzy. How could I be tricked by Sho so easily? Why did you do this to me? Who do you think you are to play god? I hate you, I hate you.....


But then what would I do if Sho didn't do this? I was so indecisive. I was avoiding, hiding, lying to myself. I might end up just hurting everyone, everyone I love.


Sho, you knew me too well. I should have more faith in you, in us. Instead I let you swallow all the pain, let myself believe that you'd betray our love, to give myself any easy way out. How pathetic I was?!


I have to go see you, tell you how sorry I was , how idiotic I was, and how much I love you. I still love you, even more so than before.


“Papa, I'm sorry. I let you down.” I didn't know how to face Papa. I disappointed him.


“No, son. I should be sorry for being so selfish. I forced you into this mess. You are a good son, but I made you miserable.” Papa hold my hands, tears in his eyes. “Go, follow your dream, find the one you really love. Be happy.”


I cried, in Papa's arms. It was the first time I cried before him since I was little. But I felt we were closer than ever. He finally understood me. I don't have to pretend anymore.


I went to where Sho works and waited for him across the street. My heart was beating so fast. I laughed at myself for being so nervous. It's been more than a year since I last saw Sho. Missed his face so much, his smiles, his warmth, his everything. I would probably just go up to him and hold him tight. I don't know if he'd forgive me or not, but I don't care. I'll make him take me back.


Finally the door opened and a familiar face came into sight. “Sho!” I shouted, but the street was too noisy for him to hear. Just as I was about to run across the street to take him in my arms, I saw – him. He was right behind Sho. I saw Sho turned back and talked to him, with a smiling face. Who is he?


I followed them to the park and sat down on a bench at the far corner from them and made sure they didn't see me. I saw them talked, saw them laughed. My heart ached every time Sho looked at him. Then, he hold Sho's hand! Jealousy and anger filled up my chest. I got up and wanted to go and said in front of his face “Sho is mine!”. But I couldn't even take my first step.


I am Sho's nobody. The day I got married, I had given up Sho.


This must be how Sho was feeling when I married Hiroko, so devastated and despaired. It's like my heart is broken into pieces. And I have no one to blame but myself.


They seem happy together. Does Sho love him? Has Sho really moved on? I hate myself for hoping the answer is “No”.


But Sho deserves to be happy. If his new love could give him the love that I couldn't give him, I should be happy for him. I can't be that selfish.


My only memories of Sho, of us are in our little apartment that we spent our limited time together. Living there could make me feel Sho's presence, even when he's not there. I didn't even realize I had never canceled the lease for it. Every month the rent was paid through direct payment from my bank account. I was delighted.


“If, one day, we can be together, you'll have to show me all your drawings.”


I still remembered Sho said that to me right here in this apartment. Although it was unlikely, I still didn't want to give up that hope. May be the fact that I still kept all the drawings even after Sho broke up with me tells me that I could never forget him, no matter if we are destined to be together or not.


I taped up all the drawings I made of Sho on the apartment wall, even continued taking peeks at him sometimes and drawing him. I still want to see his handsome face and smiles, even if he's not smiling to me anymore. Some day, I hope he would come to see them. I know the chance is slim, but this is the slim hope that kept me going.


“Satoshi, what are you thinking about?” Sho's soft voice brought me back from my thoughts. Seeing him in my arms, I realized how lucky I am, to have him back in my life again.


“Nothing. I am just thinking how I can tie you up and never let you out of my sight.” I tightened my embrace and kissed Sho tenderly.


“I'm not going anywhere.” Sho smiled, more charming than ever, which gave me an idea.


I got up to get my drawing pad and pencil, sat down at the end of the bed and started drawing.


“What are you doing?” Sho blushed and reached out his hands to grab the blanket, which I quickly threw to the floor.


“I want to draw a naked portrait of you!” I smirked but my hands didn't stop drawing.


“No way! Give me the pad.” He tried to grab my drawing pad but in vein. I got up and started running around the bedroom and Sho chased after me. We ended up both falling to the floor, out of breathes but still laughing hard.


This kind of happy laughter from us will have more to come, I will make sure of that.



// The End

A/N:  The whole series has finally come to a close, hopefully with Ohno and Sho living happily ever after ♥♥♥  Thanks again for everyone who has read it and especially to those who had commented. Hope you will continue reading my yama fics XD



( 16 comments — Leave a comment )
Aug. 11th, 2011 01:29 am (UTC)
*hugs* OTSUKARE~

This epilogue has somehow completed the puzzle of this whole series by letting us know what had been going on inside Ohno's mind the whole time they've been apart. I can see that both are very much suffering through the 2 years, but the mutual acceptance and the hope they had left, however small... I think those were what brought them back together.

It's a bittersweet story but the way it ended, with cuddles and teasings... left a smile on my face. *hugs*
Aug. 11th, 2011 02:24 am (UTC)
Uwaaa.. Finally the epilogue.
I love this fic. Glad they live happily together.

Both of them suffered for 2 years ne..
Thanks for writing
Aug. 11th, 2011 07:26 am (UTC)
thanks a lot for sharing~ ^O^ like this so much.. waiting the new fics~ ^O^
Aug. 11th, 2011 07:39 am (UTC)
It's really cute and lovely ~
They're so in love!
Hopefully they're back together!

Thank you for sharing!!
Aug. 11th, 2011 08:50 am (UTC)
i will follow all your works...that's a promise with all my heart and soul...hehehe
Aug. 11th, 2011 11:35 am (UTC)
Kk-chan, I promise to comment properly later after I got back xD..
Aug. 20th, 2011 11:30 am (UTC)
just got back from my trip.
gosh this epilogue really complete all the missing pieces specially from ohno side
this one of the best yama i've ever read
*hugs you for writing this fic
Aug. 11th, 2011 12:30 pm (UTC)
thank you so much for giving us Ohno POV as well which im always curious of<3333
for me his character always such a mystery until the end xD
finally this wonderful story is complete<3333333333
im so happy we getting such a happy ending to the pair^.^

looking forward for more of your story in the future since i love your writing<3
Aug. 11th, 2011 06:32 pm (UTC)
I really like that the pov is Ohno's. We get to see what he was thinking and how he was feeling, past and present :D
Wah~ they're so happy together and I'm happy that they're together. Thanks for sharing ♥
Aug. 12th, 2011 07:57 am (UTC)
I'm so glad that they worked things out. :)
It was really nice to see what happened from Ohno's POV and to hear his thoughts.
Aug. 14th, 2011 05:09 am (UTC)
yes, really, i hope they keep living a life together happily ever after...
a view from ohno side was interesting, and the new scenes that was inserted at the start and the last were really sweet and cute!
thank you so much for writing this series so far :DDD
Sep. 4th, 2011 01:53 pm (UTC)
It makes me happy to know that despite him needing to forget him whether they were destined to be together, he still couldn't let his love fade away. And even though it got slightly on my nerves that despite knowing that Sho loved him, Ohno somehow lost faith that ended up separating them.Finally, throughout all the sad moments of being separated, they are finally together and happy.

But I am glad that things worked out for the best.<333
Thanks so much for sharing this whole series.
Sep. 6th, 2011 07:16 pm (UTC)
Oh wow, I totally forgot to review this.

Thanks for another lovely series! I'm so happy to know Ohno's side of the story, and the ending was so sweet. Somehow everything worked out, and I just love how they reunited by the house that they shared memories with, and of course Ohno's sketches of him. Their love prevailed til the very end ♥

Edited at 2011-09-06 11:16 pm (UTC)
Oct. 6th, 2012 03:42 am (UTC)
just finished reading the whole thing.. the mix of emotions portrayed in this fic is just... amazing..
and it's weird but i'm still crying.. i'm really happy they got back together <3 T^T
Jul. 13th, 2015 06:33 pm (UTC)
I just finished the whole thing (stayed up until 6AM because I couldn't stop!) and I have to say that I'm a total mess. Despite the happy ending and knowing they still loved each other during those 2 years, I suffered so much... For Sho, who was so desperately in love since he was a teenager; for Ohno, who doomed himself to hell for his family; for Jun, who wanted to be loved by Sho so badly; and for Hiroko, because she was not only cheated on but changed for a man, she might've been torn.

Everyone was so miserable here!!

But I loved it to bones~ You were able to portray the character's feelings at every moment. And you know, after suffering so much during several chapters, when Sho went to NY with Jun and found his inner peace (despite feeling empty without Ohno), I felt at ease too. It was awesome.

Thanks for making me feel all these things!
*onto de next fic*

Edited at 2015-07-13 09:37 pm (UTC)
Aug. 12th, 2015 02:09 pm (UTC)
I really like the story, I cannot said it well but you are my yama fav author!

I always satisfied after reading the content of your fic ♥
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