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[Yama fic] Heart to Heart

Title: Heart to Heart
Pairing: Yama (Ohno x Sho)
Rating: PG
Genre: fluff, family
Disclaimer: Purely fictional, for entertainment only
Summary: Sho had a heart-to-heart conversation with his father. (Inspired by Sho's interview on Tokudane, aired 2013.05.23, when he talked about inviting his father to his solo concert)

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“I’m home.” Sho announced out of habit when he entered the house, not expecting anyone to be home. Rehearsal for his solo concerts finished earlier than expected. Tired and a bit stressed out, he decided to go home, take a warm bath and relaxed. He could use some time to himself.

To his surprise, a familiar voice saying “Welcome back” was what he got in return.

“Papa, you’re home.” Sho was a little off guard to find his old man home at this time of day.

“My meeting finished early and there’s no point of going all the way across town back to the office just for a couple of hours, so I decided to come home to work instead.” Sho’s father put down the papers in his hand and walked towards Sho. “Have you eaten? I’m a little hungry. How about I make us some ramen?”

"That sounds good." Sho put down his bag on the couch. "Let me go freshen up and I'll come help you."

"Take your time. I may not be a good cook but making ramen is still within my capabilities. I can even give you a lesson or two." Sho's father started to take ingredients out from the kitchen cabinet. Sho smiled and went into his room.

Sho and his father were not exceptionally close. His father was a well respected public servant. Although Sho never considered following his father's footsteps, he knew there were still certain expectations of him from his family, especially from his father. His parents weren’t exactly fond of the idea of him being an idol even though they didn’t explicitly object to it. He still remembered the night when he told them he wanted to stay with the agency and remains as Arashi. There were no big arguments, no long lectures or any persuasion.

“Continue with your university educations in Keio and graduate in 4 years. That’s all we’re asking of you and you can do whatever you want to do.”

That’s all his father said to him, without much emotions attached.

It was tough. He knew it from the very beginning. Keeping up with both school work and idol work was undeniably hard. Sleepless nights, missing rehearsals, not to mention the mocking remarks from schoolmates and staff that he heard but couldn’t tell if they were intentionally spoken for him to hear from time to time. Numerous times he was really close to giving up.

“You can do it, Sho-chan. I believe in you.”

The gentle voice he loved to hear so much always gave him strength when he needed it the most.
Not wanting to be parted with the owner of this voice was a big motivation for him. In fact, wanting to stay with this person, the leader of the group who didn’t do much leadership work, was the biggest reason why he debuted in the first place.

They grew close since juniors’ time. Satoshi-kun, his way of calling their leader which seemed to be his acquiesced exclusive privilege among members, was not the most social person in the agency, but somehow was more at ease and relaxed around him. He felt Satoshi-kun needed him. From fellow juniors to group members to lovers, their support for each other had been the biggest strength to overcome any obstacles and hardships. Of course, the other three members of Arashi and his own stubbornness also played a part in his getting through those tough four years.

“Ramen is ready.” Sho heard his father calling out from the kitchen.

“I’m coming.” Sho quickly changed into his home clothes and left the room.

“Smells good.” Sho was actually really hungry after the whole morning of rehearsals. “Want a beer?”

“Sure.” It’s been a while since father and son drank together. He sure missed it.

Sho grabbed two beers from the fridge and they said down together and started eating.

Sho literally stuffed his mouth with ramen. “Delicious – ” Talking with his mouth full almost made him choke.

“Easy, easy.” Sho’s father looked at his son and shook his head. Then he slowly started to eat his own food.

It took Sho a couple of minutes to properly chewed up what’s in his mouth and swallowed them all. He then drank half the bottle of beer before making a big burp. “Ah – feels much better now.”

Sho’s father was not exactly amused by Sho’s eating look. He thought he taught his son better manner than that.  “Didn’t you get anything to eat at work?”

Sho paused for a moment. Work, as an idol, that’s his son’s work. He seldom asked his son about his work, and Sho didn’t initiate the topic either. It’s like they’re both avoiding the subject. Sho knew his father never wholeheartedly approved of what he’s doing, even after six years since his Arashi debut. Now that his father suddenly hit the subject, though indirectly, Sho was little taken aback.

“Well -- we had a busy morning.” Sho continued eating, avoiding the subject again. He thought his father would let it go, but not this time.

“You seem to be especially busy lately, even going to the gym more often than usual. May be you have some big events coming up, but you still got to eat. The busier you are, the more reason to keep up your energy level.”

Sho felt a little warmth in his heart. Even though they didn’t talk about it, but his father was paying attention to him, more than he noticed.

He had not yet mentioned about his solo concerts to his father. He told his mother and siblings about it. His siblings even helped writing some of the lyrics for his songs. But he had yet to tell his father. Thinking back, he had never invited his father to any Arashi concerts. But he felt an urge to do so this time. No matter if his father would approve or support what he chose as his career path, he wanted his father to witness something that’s very special to him, something that belongs only to him, and there might not be a second time.

“About that – ” Sho put down his chopsticks and clear his throat. He was super nervous, like the moment before making a marriage proposal. “I have a concert this weekend. It’s my solo one, only me performing, not the whole group. Do you want to come?”

“I thought you’d never ask.” His father looked at him and smiled. “This weekend, right? I’m planning on coming.”

That’s it? Sho thought. He was happy that his father agreed to go, but the acceptance of the invitation was too quick. At least there should be a little hesitation. His father was not the type that goes to concerts with idols singing and dancing and jumping around, let alone the one doing those was his own son. The reactions, or lack thereof, made Sho felt that he already knew about the event and waiting for his son to extend the invitation.

“So mama told you about it.” It’s the most logical assumption Sho could make of it. He knew Mai and Shu wouldn’t dare to mention their older brother’s work to their father.

“Actually she didn’t.”

“She didn’t? Then how did you – ” Sho was truly puzzled.

“Someone told me about it this morning. Someone who seems to care a lot about you.” The solemn facial expression didn’t match the casual tone that went with it. “He even asked if I can go to support you.”


“I’m happy that you’re working with such caring people. I’ve always had the impression that people in entertainment industry only compete with each other and mind their own benefits, but I may be wrong.” Sho’s father lighted a cigarette and sat back down across from Sho, who was still trying to figure out who that person might me. “You’re lucky, son, to have a caring leader in your group.”

“Lea – der? Satoshi-kun?” Sho couldn’t believe what he just heard.

He remembered he had casually mentioned to Satoshi about his father had yet to come to even one of their concerts before. He wasn’t complaining or airing any grievances or anything, but attentive Satoshi must have picked up his disappointment without him knowing it.

“Papa, you saw Sato – leader this morning? I thought you were at work.”

“I was. Your leader, Ohno-san, right? He waited for me outside my office. A very polite young man.”

“So – what did you talk about?” Sho asked cautiously.

“Ohno-san told me about your upcoming solo concerts and how much you’ve worked hard on it. He also said it would mean a lot to you if I can go to cheer for you.”

Sho felt a clog in his throat. He was so touched by what Satoshi did for him, and he was relieved that his lover left a good impression to his father. That’s very important to their future together.

“I must say, though, that I’m a little angry at you for not telling me about it yourself, and I have to hear it from a third party.”

“I’m sorry, Papa. I just didn’t know if you’re interested in hearing about my work. I know what I’m doing is not exactly up to your standard.” Sho finally spit out what had been in his mind for years.

“Non-sense! What kind of a father you think I am?!” Sho’s father raised his voice, obviously agitated at Sho’s remarks. “I have high expectations for you, I admit, but that doesn’t mean I don’t respect the choice you made.” He let out a sigh and softened his voice. “I know how hard you’ve been working, especially the years through college. Your stubbornness and not letting yourself failed sure come from me.”

Both father and son laughed. In a way Sho felt closer to his father than he had been for a long time. He felt the ice between them was starting to melt.

“Seriously, now that I met your leader, I am somewhat relieved. He seems to be a dependable person and care about his fellow members a lot. It’s very nice of him to come invite me to your concert.”

Sho was screaming inside that he is not just a fellow member to Satoshi, and Satoshi is not just the leader of the group. Their relationship was more than band-mates. He was scared to tell his father before, but maybe it’s a good time to make it out in the open.

“Papa, leader – Satoshi-kun – ” Sho felt his tongue was twisting on him. “I mean – ”

“What are you trying to say?”

Sho took a deep breath and gathered up every bit of courage in him. “What I’m trying to say is – Satoshi-kun and I are – more than band-mates, more than friends. He was part of the reason why I stayed with the agency.”

Sho almost felt his heart was going to beat out of his body. He didn’t even dare to breathe awaiting for his death sentence.

His father didn’t say anything. He turned around, hands on his back and looked down on the floor.

One minute, two minutes, five, ten minutes had passed and his father still holding the same position. Sho didn’t know what to make of it. Finally, his father turned back to face him.

“I should have known.” The elder Sakurai let out a sigh before saying.


“Now come to think of it, the way he talked about you, the way he pleaded in his eyes for me to go to your concert, embraced more than caring between colleagues. You’re special to him.”

“Does that mean you’re OK with it?” Sho asked anxiously.

“I didn’t say that! I would be lying if I told you I’m not shocked. It’s not only about what you choose as your career anymore. Relationship is a lifetime commitment and who you commit to for your life affects your family too.” Sho’s father lighted another cigarette. He sure wasn’t prepared for such an eventful day.

“I’m sure you’ll like him, once you get to know him more. He gave me a lot of help and support through my college years. We are very happy – together.” Sho didn’t want to push it. His father not showing any immediate objection was already as good as he could hope for.

“I’ll need some time to digest it for sure. I can only promise that I’ll try to keep an open mind about it, nothing more, at least not at this moment.”

Sho’s father was not sure how he felt about this. Before he met Ohno, he would definitely opposed without question. Meeting Ohno before he knew about their relationship did prevent him from looking at Ohno with tinted glasses in the first place. He admitted that Ohno seemed to be a fine young man, and his care about his son was undeniable. And he himself was the one who said he respected the choices his son made. That said, it still didn’t negate the fact that the person who’s in a relationship with his son was a man. That’s something he was totally unprepared for.

“Are you still coming to my concert this weekend?” Sho wasn’t sure how his reveal of his relationship with Satoshi changed his father’s impression about his work.

“Why not? Unless you don’t want me to come now.”

“No, I mean, yes, of course I want you to come. I’m giving all my best in it.” Sho somehow started to feel a little nervous about performing this weekend, now that he knew his father was going. “I have a collaboration with Satoshi-kun as well. We created this song and skit together. It’s called Oretachi no Song.” Sho was very proud of their creation. It’s something that belonged only to the two of them.

“Ganbatte!” Sho’s father patted his son’s shoulder gently. “Don’t make me regret going.”

Sho nodded his head firmly. “You won’t.” He’s glad to have this heart-to-heart talk with his father. He felt it’s long overdue. It was a fruitful conversation, and he wanted to take full advantage of it.

“By the way Papa, want to go with me to another concert at the end of the month? The performer is very talented!”

// The End


( 2 comments — Leave a comment )
Aug. 7th, 2013 01:13 am (UTC)
I always love an Arashi + Family interaction! And this is just sooo lovely! I got teary-eyed while watching that Tokudane episode, and for you to give it this kind of twist really made my heart flutter and my eyes teary again for a totally different reason. <3

Yama love is always wonderful, ne. Sho's really lucky to have Satoshi by his side to show his support and even gather up the courage to face up to his father. I'm sure Papa Sakurai, though he may still be reluctant to fully accept them together, knows at the bottom of his heart that Sho's in good hands with Satoshi.

Thank you very much for sharing this heartwarming Yama fix! <3<3<3
Aug. 7th, 2013 06:19 am (UTC)
It's very heartwarming that Sho's father is supporting him.
Satoshi play a big part of this support, he loves Sho so much that he will even ask Sho's father to watch the concert. S brave of him.. I'm glad Sakurai papa is trying to be open on their relationship.
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