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[Yama fic] Forbidden Love (Part 4)

Title: Forbidden Love
Pairing: Yama (Ohno x Sho)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, antiquity, angst, romance, friendship
Disclaimer: Purely fictional, for entertainment only
Summary: Prince Satoshi tried to distant himself from Sho to protect him, but wasn't very successful. On the other hand, Sho was still confused about Satoshi's intermittent indifferent.


Part 4

Satoshi

After seeing him leaving the room, I lied down on the bed, not a bit of energy left in my body. Nino put down the medicine bowl but still stays by my bedside.

“Satoshi-kun, what were you thinking? What happened today – was because of him, wasn’t it? If you – if you are really protecting him, why don’t you let him know? That silly kid may be grumbling about it.”

“This is sensitive matter. The fewer – people know about it the better. When the time comes, I’ll – let him go – ” I was afraid that Nino would say something to Sho. “Nino, don’t – let him know. I – don’t want him involved – ”

“Alright, I understand! For the record, I’ll just put down you have stomach illness. But you must be very careful. You are a prince but you are not immortal. You can’t protect him from everything! Get some rest, I’ll be back later with more medicine.”

After Nino left, I got more and more drowsy. Am I dreaming? I saw Jun – when he was little, when we were little. I was still my old self, not very likable by others. But Jun are I were the closest among all brothers. We studied together, trained together, played together…...

Oh Jun, why do you have to kill Sho? You should know that I was forced into this war, and he’s just an innocent bystander! I can’t let anything happened to him – don’t drink it – Jun, if you must see him dead, I will protect him from every harm, until I could do it no more….

“Your Highness! Your Highness! Wake up! I am Sho – are you having nightmares?”

I felt the warm and softness in my hands again – and his voice. I was really dreaming just now. I open my eyes and see him sitting right at my bedside. Worries and concerns were all over his face. One day – just give me one day – when I don’t have to pretend in front of him…..

“Sho – I am cold – can you – lie next to me?” I didn’t know how these words came out of my mouth. May be they should come out long time ago. A glimpse of disbelief flashed through his eyes which made my heart skipped a beat. I was so scared he would refuse.

He didn’t refuse. Holding my hand with one hand and my waist with the other, he gently moved me aside a little and lied next to me on the bed. I moved as close to him as I could. He put his hand on my stomach and rubs gently. I knew he’s trying to ease my pain, but he didn’t know that it wouldn’t do any good. His intention still made me very happy.

“Your Highness, I am very dumb, ain’t I? To be your companion was not what you want, was it? I always give you trouble, didn’t I?” He sounds very depressing all of a sudden, “You know, I really hate myself. I want so badly to share some of your burdens, but turns out I can’t help you with anything. It’s the wine, wasn’t it? I am certainly dumb! If you didn’t sleep talk, I will never know….”

Sleep talk?! Oh no! So I was the one who actually told him?! “Sho – ” I used his shoulder as support and wanted to sit up. He sat up before me and helped me up. “Don’t think too much for my sake -- I am not as good as you think -- I kept you with me -- just because I can use you. Do you – understand?”

Looks like I have to be heartless towards you…..


Sho

Why do you always have to treat me like that? A minute ago you asked me to lie down next to you, which made me overwhelmingly happy. Then the next minute you pushed me down a bottomless chasm. Use me? Because my father is an army general? That’s fine, I never minded this, as long as you see me as your friend. But still, hearing you say it out loud made me feel very sad.

“If – you don’t want to – hear the truth, you – can – leave – ” He said with the cold and indifferent as before. But seeing his face as pale as white paper and his body shaking slightly because of the pain, I didn’t dare to let go of my hand. On the contrary, in a fit of pique, I even tightened my grip. He, however, didn’t complain at all. In the silence of the room, I could only hear his panting sound….

Anxieties won over complaints after all. I looked at his hand. It’s already red and swollen from my grip! “Why didn’t you say that it’s hurting?!” I then looked at him who’s leaning on my shoulder. In such close distance, I could clearly see his sweats, as big as peas, dropping from his forehead down his cheek, then disappeared in his clothes. But he wass still emotionless, looking at the floor lifelessly. “Your Highness?!”

The whole night, I didn’t hear him say anything more, even when Nino-sansei came with another dosage of medicine. And I, just sit next to him and hold his hand. Whether it’s when Nino-sansei was giving him the medicine, or when he passed out in pain in my arms. We never talked again, and neither did we let go of our hands. I have a strange feeling. When we are both silent, I could quietly recall the sentiments he gave me me over the past four years.

Did he really distant himself from me and not care about me at all? I think not. He seems to be always watching over me silently. I never felt I lack anything. I never felt disturbed or prejudice, not even hearing any harmful rumors. As a matter of fact, being here in such an odd position, I was prepared to cope with any kind of finger pointing from the very first day I was here. But to my surprise, it didn’t turn out the way he expected. Nobody dares to say anything hostile to me anywhere in the palace.

I have never thought about the reason behind that very carefully before, but now I’m starting to gradually understand. Originally I became a hostage here in the palace because Papa is holding military power. But there’s really nobody targeting Papa ever since I was here? I don’t think it’s that simple. Did he really hold up against all those for me? The reports from the army that Prince Jun was talking about…..Oh, I’m all confused…..

The next day, his conditions seemed to be much better. He was still very pale, but at least no more vomiting blood or hurting so much that he couldn’t stand up straight. At first he even tried to get up for morning meetings with the king, but was stopped by Nino-sansei. As to me, he’s still not saying a word, nor showing any smiling face.

After lunch, people in the palace started to come visit him. First were the servants who brought tonic supplements sent by the king, who said he might come visit later in the day. Then there were some ministers whose only reason to care was to kiss ass. Some other princes also came, but none stayed very long.

Then Prince Masaki came. Though they were technically competitors for the king’s throne, I can tell that they are the closest among all the sons of the king. When he heard Prince Masaki is coming, he ordered his brother’s favorite snacks to be made. He even wanted to get out of bed to help and almost fell down when Prince Masaki tripped a little at the doorway, which gave me a fright!



To be continued.....


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( 4 comments — Leave a comment )
coolohoh
Jul. 21st, 2014 09:57 pm (UTC)
aw, Sho is starting to understand now!
emre21
Jul. 22nd, 2014 03:03 am (UTC)
Prince Satoshi you can't hide the truth because Sho is smarter than you think...
I wonder what is Jun next step..
Thanks for sharing...Waiting for the next chapter...
yun_miyake
Jul. 22nd, 2014 07:54 am (UTC)
oh please, don't hide your feeling like that prince!!
just let sho know, it would be so much better for both of them TT
thanks for the update
icha_kazeinda
Jul. 22nd, 2014 08:20 am (UTC)
oh Prince!! why did u have to be like that with Sho?? ><
you must be really care about him ne.. T_T
thanks for updating Kate-chan.. can't wait for next chapter~ <3
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