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[Yama fic] Forbidden Love (Part 7)

Title: Forbidden Love
Pairing: Yama (Ohno x Sho)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, antiquity, angst, romance, friendship
Disclaimer: Purely fictional, for entertainment only
Summary: Prince Satoshi is facing a new challenge and Sho swears to stick by him.

Part 7


A year had passed. I didn’t know he was so good in acting and could carefully maintain an appropriate distance between us. He didn't follow me all the time telling me this and that all the time like before. He had matured a lot over this past year, both physically and emotionally. But this maturity somehow made me feel sad and uneasy. Seems both of us are putting up faces that are not the real us.

The fight for the king's throne looked to have quiet down a lot, but actually it’s just the calm before the storm. Nobody dares to make a move but at the same time dare not let their guard down either. The relationship between Jun and I had got to a point where our interactions are merely casual greetings. Masaki still comes to see me pretty often. I feel he is still trying to be a bridge that connects Jun and me, not letting his siblings to be completely torn apart.

Masaki is doing well in heading the Personnel Unit of the administration. He didn't show any interest in completing for the king's successor. Even Mother had started to tell me not to put so much energy on him. I am thankful that there's one fewer person Mother would bug me about.

I don't know if life is as dramatic on the outside world as it is in the palace. Last night Mother is still Father's favorite and attending him by his bedside. Today she was being ignored left aside because of an urgent report. If I were not liked by Father, she would most likely have been banished to the cold palace.

Honestly, I did't think Mother should be blamed for this. Basara Kingdom had broken the treaty of alliance and invaded our kingdom. This wasn't something Mother can control or prevent. Rain was pouring outside and Mother was crying hysterically inside.

“Mother, please calm down first.” I handed a cup of hot tea to her. “Father is probably just in the fit of anger. After a few days when the disturbance calm down, it will be fine.”

“How will it be fine?! Didn’t you see the other concubines? How they look and finger pointing at me? They are all waiting to see me go down. I am the King’s favorite. How can I be treated like this?” Her anger was obviously not yet appeased.

“Then Mother wants – ” I probed while noting Mother’s reaction. I don’t feel like her son more and more these recent years. I am just her tool to get what she wants.

“In any case, your father should not let me be disgraced like that!” She said sounding like a spoiled child. “Satoshi, you have to become the next king. I have to let everyone sees that you are the most capable prince! I heard that your relationship with that Sakurai Sho is beyond average. It’s about time to make good use of it.”

I watched Mother talked silently without saying anything. May be it’s due to the rain tonight, otherwise why do I suddenly feel so cold? I stood up and prepared to see Mother off. When I opened the door I saw him standing at the far end of the corridor, expressionless. Did he hear what Mother said? I didn’t have the energy to think, just left my palace with Mother.

After taking Mother back to her palace, I went to see Father, but never thought that Father would refuse to see me. Looks like I’d have to take a little risk on this one. With my mind made up, I asked the guard to continue making interview request for me. I hold the army commander’s seal in my hand and kneeled in front of Father’s palace.


What did I learn during the past year? What did I see clearly during the past year? Even I myself was shock by the answer, which is – I love him! I am not sure if ‘love’ is the right word, but when I was tossing and turning in bed on those sleepless nights, this is the only word I came up with that really described my feelings. But it scares me to death – how could it be this word? I am afraid to stay by his side for long. I’m afraid to see his puzzling looks towards me. I’m afraid to be close enough to him to smell his special scent. I’m afraid to do anything that may make him notice this little secret of mine.

At the same time, we received the report of the invasion of the Basara Kingdom. He got that news from his mother. I got it from an urgent letter from Papa. Papa wanted me to plea to the king to allow me to fight for our kingdom with him against the invaders. The last time I fight on the battlefield with Papa was several years ago before I came to the palace. I was longing so much to do so again. But now, I couldn’t bear to leave him…..

“Satoshi, I heard that your relationship with that Sakurai Sho is beyond average. It’s about time to make good use of it.” It’s Concubine Ohno again! I hated her coming more and more. She never showed any concern or love towards him. It’s always only requests and demands. Even when he was poisoned last time, his heartless mother didn’t come to see him even once.

I didn’t eavesdrop on their conversation on purpose. I was just concerned what she’s demanding of him this time. Finally wanting to use me? For what? Satoshi, I silently called out his name. If, I do worth something to you; if, what I’m worth for can be used to share your burden, I really don’t mind being used by you at all! Seeing his somewhat exhausted look when he came out, I really want to run over to him and hug him, telling him I’m willing to bear all the burdens with him! But in the end, we just disappeared from each other’s vision without a bit of interaction.

The storm tonight does look like a battlefield for the flowers and trees in the garden. Those that are not strong enough would be hit mercilessly to the ground. The lights in the hallway were lighted and got blown off, relighted and got blown off again. He should have taken his mother back long time ago. Why hasn’t he come back? I kept the same posture at the corridor, didn’t care if my clothes got wet from the rain. I won’t be at easy until I see him back.

“Sakurai-san!” Suddenly a flustered guard who usually attends to him ran towards me. “Sakurai-san, Prince Satoshi insisted on kneeling in front of His Majesty’s palace waiting to be summoned. His Majesty already said he won’t see him. I begged him to leave but – ”

I started rushing out before he finished. Then I turned around and yelled at him to repeat what he said to Nino-sansei while continued running towards the king’s palace.

The front of the king’s palace is a wide piece of flat land. I could see his lonely self from afar. The winding blew at his small body. The rain hit on his already wet clothes. Knowing him, persuading him to leave is bound to fail. I slowly went up to his side and kneeled next to him.

“Your Highness – ” I almost became speechless after just one call. “Do you really have to do this?”

He looked up at me. The glimpse of shock was quickly replaced by the look of determination. His face was very pale, his lips all purple from the cold. “Leave -- ” His voice was trembling, but very firm. “ – now!”

“I said before, no matter what, I will always be by your side. I know you’ve made up your mind, so I won’t try to talk you out of it.” This time, I won’t back down.

“This is – my business!” Still keep kneeling. “You leave now – and this is an order!”

To be continued.....

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( 4 comments — Leave a comment )
Aug. 26th, 2014 11:12 pm (UTC)
ouh please dont leave him, sho. he need a support!!!
Aug. 27th, 2014 01:31 am (UTC)
ahhh this part about Ohno kneeling down totally reminds me of those old chinese palace dramas...
Aug. 27th, 2014 04:48 am (UTC)
Finally Sho admitted it!! He loves Prince Satoshi!!! :')
Prince Satoshi~ please rely on Sho a bit!! he needs you and you need him!! TT_TT
can't wait for next chapter! xDD
Aug. 29th, 2014 02:14 am (UTC)
it seems that the situation is going worse for both of them
everyone is aiming on satoshi's destruction T^T
thanks for this chapter
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